It has struck me that all my posts have been based around my little Mo and I feel a bit guilty about this. I started to ask why I haven't been pouring all the info regarding my bump out on here. I guess no particular reason other than it's been an odd pregnancy thus far with a few non ideal situations.
This probably sounds a bit odd. I just mean that when I first found out I was pregnant I had a bit of a melt down which I am not altogether happy about but I can understand why it happened.
We had decided in the next few months we were actually going to try for the second baby and then bam.... I'm pregnant! Very happy but also- none of the rosy tinted spectacle stuff you have with your first pregnancy. And I admit it.I panicked. I remembered all the hard stuff with Monty and was still going through a tough time with him, being a spirited two year old.
At the time we were enjoying a nice social life managing to go out once a month with friends whilst my Mum would have Monty overnight...this would all be a thing of the past with two. I realised that I was probably trying to straddle 2 worlds - my Mummy world and my pre Mummy world and it wasn't really working for one reason or another.So I felt a feeling of sadness and finality. Not how you want to be feeling when you just recieved the best news ever.
I felt selfish and disgusting for having those feelings.
A few vile weeks followed, me being up and down, and then I started to bleed, and have cramping. Everything was put into perpective. Told to take things easy and sit it out. I was petrified. I thought it was my fault, I was being punished??
Then I got swine flu.
COULD.NOT.GET.ANY.WORSE. I felt utterly gross until about 11 weeks pregnant, but was also suffering from nausea. Which I had never had with Monty. I spent my days feeling hung over and wishing I could just throw up! This lasted for weeks and I can honestly say I have only probably been really feeling my pickle bump mojo in the last month or so.
All's good now, sorry to put a dampner on things if this post has depressed your eyeballs out of your head- I'm back to shiny happy Bec now and totally loving my Pickle pregnancy.
I think the things that have sorted my preggy mojo out have been taking care of myself, eating well (that has included copious amout of pickled stuff but most of that counts as my 5 a day right? Right???) Excercising- I have been swimming lots- it makes me feel lighter!!! And releases fabbo endorphins. And also good supportive Mummy mates, superbly fabtastic people who had my back and listened to me and were just wholly there for me. And of course my awesome hubby.
So from here on in I'm going to be posting progress pics of the pickle bump and sharing mucho because this goes so quickly and I want to savour every minute!